i’m not sure i can fully describe what is going through my mind right now.
it’s 2 am. and i’m doing laundry. in a hotel. while writing this post. and i leave for Georgia in the morning. my life currently doesn’t fit into a category.
today was the last day of training in St. Louis before our rotations. this means that it was the last day of endless power points. the last day of hotel living. the last day of the American GMTs being in the same location. the last day of eating out for every single meal. the last day of knowing my surroundings. the last day of someone making my bed. the last day of this pampered lifestyle.
don’t get me wrong. i don’t think my life is hard. or that this upcoming segment of my life will be hard. but it will be closer to real life. i am so ready for it. i have been itching to actually get into the thick of things for a while. to get my hands dirty. to learn first hard. to realize how incredibly inexperienced i am. i am ready to learn in the real world. i no longer want to be talked at. i want to watch. i want to do. i want to interact. i want to participate.
now let me rewind.
i started this week a little worn down. global week took it out of me. those kids are crazy. i cannot keep up. i am so inferior.
the group of 147 global GMTs dispersed back to their lands of origin until only the Americans and Canadians were left. a mere 30 people. that dwindled even more quickly to 23 when our dear Canadians left on wednesday. this week, we began our training of the information technology and business services department, affectionally known as IBS. we learned about the different roles that information technology and business services play in the company. about how the information technology is the continuous improvement aspect and the business services are the foundation of the company’s everyday transactions that keep the beer flowing.
i could tell you so many more things about IBS. i interned in that department for the last 2 summers. it was a blast. i loved the people. i learned more than i ever cared to know about ETTL codes, DLLs, and software platforms.
but this week was really about the people to me.
people from my previous summers. people from this program. people from the company. people from home. just people. all kinds of people.
now let’s be real here for a minute. because it’s 2 am. and 2 am is the perfect time for raw, honest conversations.
it’s amazing how much of an impact people make on your life. they shape you. mold you. encourage you. discourage you. build you up. tear you down. laugh with you. cry with you. grow with you. teach you. correct you. just hold you.
i have spent a month with 23 people. some that i feel really close to. others that i wish i knew better. a few that i would not mind a break from. but all of which i care deeply about. they are great people. they each have their quirks. they each have their weaknesses. they each have their downfalls. but don’t we all? isn’t that what makes life so interesting? i have more than my fair share of faults, shortcomings, quirks, weaknesses, and straight up failures. but i hope these people can see past that. because while i see their weaknesses, i also see immense strength in them. i see hopes, dreams, futures. i see something beautiful.
that’s what it is all about to me. it’s about people. always has been. always will be.
i am learning incredible skills, processes, and aspects of this company through my program. but those things pale in comparison to the people. inside the company or out.
a friend shared an article with me about a man that spent too much time focusing on his career and lost everything that he really had been working for: his wife, a family, someone to care about him. regardless of the job, the money, the toys, he was miserable. it was depressing. he forgot what life was truly about. have you ever got caught up in that? thinking that toys will make you happy. that a salary will make you happy. that a promotion will make you happy. that recognition will make you happy.
don’t get me wrong. i get caught up in it too. and i absolutely think that having a job and contributing to society is important. essential even. but my first priority should never be my job. it may work for some people. it doesn’t for me. people are the first priority to me.
so what do i really remember of this week?
watching Frozen with 6 guys from the program. yes. they voluntarily chose Frozen when i was the only girl present.
a friend that had glass stuck in her foot, but was just happy because it brought everyone together to get it out. she was a champ.
real, honest conversations with new friends. and old friends.
a mentor that is willing to spend her evening with me. to teach me, to give solid advice, and to be honest with me.
lunches with people that care about me.
quippy jokes about something stupid that i did.
dinner with friends that have known me forever and dinner with friends that haven’t even known me a year.
hot, sweaty country concerts and party buses.
my parents coming to visit this weekend. to love me. support me. laugh with me. remind me of how truly blessed i am to be their daughter.
that’s what is really all about to me. what is it really all about to you? because whatever it is or whatever you want it to be… make sure you reflect that in your choices.